teddybear-jailhouse

2011-01-02T14:51:00.000+08:00

this is officially driving me crazy. omg idk what to do, what shld i do??? who can i be totally honest with? i really have no idea, everybody judges. omg i cant handle this, i thought i could. oh god, what have i done? its so wrong, but so thrilling and exciting, oh my god how should i put this, but the bottom line is: should i care? or should i not? sooooooooo frustrating, somebody tell me wad to do please ARGHHHH i need answers

2010-11-30T23:55:00.001+08:00

omg this is really hell for me. yes i've learnt more then i'd expected in such a short while, but this is really not going well for me, emotionally wise. i go to work everyday feeling empty. no one is there to share joys and troubles with. im like a lost puppy everyday, waiting for others to tell me what i should do. and not to mention all the freaking dilution for non-emergency cases. i dont remember them teaching in school or during project p? so much so for 2 freaking weeks of 'recap'. i dont even know what the staffs are talking bout, how am i going to take case like that? and did i mention how sucky it is to be a student? freaking lowest in hierarchy, you're constantly waiting for help, even opening the damn locked doors you need a staff pass. every single time i wait for others to open for me i feel like banging my head against the wall. its like im so useless i cant even open my own damn doors. do others feel like that? i think its just me. and some staffs are just plain nasty. havent they been a student before? look, you dont have to show your authority here. i know where i stand, havent i been humble enough? dont tell me you weren't a student before, that you weren't in my shoes before. did your senior do that to you, and in turn you are doing it to me? get a life, if you have to torture others to feel good, then i dont know what to say. i dont know what to do, feeling so aimless sucks. i want to be in control, i want to know what im doing. i dont even know where is my preceptor half the time, wait, do i even have one? i dont want the three months to be like that. seriously, i'd rather be in general wards. at least i know something. right here sometimes i dont even dare to touch the pts. how long will i last? i think im gonna turn my switch off, im here to complete my last lap, im not here to make some fucking friends (provided that i can choose where to work when i pass out, thats another story). right here i dont even feel good about myself, how am i going to help others?

Hello blogger, sorry i only remembered you when i need to vent my frustrations.

2010-09-09T15:17:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS SHOW

2010-08-21T17:58:00.000+08:00

Hey, I miss you.

I've got so much to tell you.

But I'll mess it up again, won't I?

2010-07-08T20:24:00.001+08:00

We look back on our tears and laugh,

we look back on our laughter and cry.

2010-07-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

2010-06-27T20:36:00.001+08:00

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM HYPERVENTILATING NON STOP RIGHT NOWWWWW

OHHMYYGODD

IM SOOOO EXCITED IM GONNA VOMIT

hmm...

2010-06-23T17:46:00.003+08:00

why is it that when some things are prohibited, or when its against the law,

we will always try and find a way to do it, go against the rules?

is it because of the thrill??

the possibility of getting caught??

exciting??

exhilarating??

will gum taste this good if its allowed in singapore??

or will weed taste this good if its not against the law??

random.

but vodka did tasted better when we drank secretly by the river,

because we were underage

i miss those times, those every other Saturday nights

ARGH

2010-06-20T16:00:00.000+08:00

OMG I CRAZY ALREADYYYYY

WHICH ONE SHOULD I NOT BUY???

STILL GOT MORE, BAGS, JEANS, SKIRTS........

BUT I GOT NO MONEY!!

SHOULD I TAKE UP THE OFFER OF GIVING TUITION??

BUT MY MATH SUCKS!!

LATER I DUNNO HOW TO DO THEN PAISEH

WHAT IF I GIVE TUITION THEN END UP HE STILL FAIL??

THEN I'LL FEEL SOOO BAD

SOMEMORE HE MY COUSIN EVERYTIME WILL SEE HIM

OH NOOO

FOREVER 21, WHY YOU TEMPT ME??

2010-06-17T20:17:00.000+08:00

erm, i guess im pretty pissed.

prolly cos i cared too much

yes, maybe i should get a bf too, to know what it's like

but right now, whatever.

im still gonna enjoy tmr. make the most outta it

scew it all

oh yeah, the vibrating mascara is goooood

;)

2010-06-12T15:09:00.002+08:00

2010-06-09T13:52:00.001+08:00

YAY YAY IT'S THE HOLIDAYSSS!

its 3 weeks this time round, well for me, cos i have no nurm

hehehe

oh yeah, i need to stock up my wardrobe already

so sick of my clothes zzz boring only

i wanna go shop w hamy cos i always buy alot when i shop w her and i likeee

soo many things to buy, i think i just spend all my money lah don't care already

next time then earn back

lolll

anw, i don't understand why he always make her cry. i don't like, i wish i can punch him.

seriously! HAHA

2010-06-08T20:14:00.000+08:00

I Got a Bikini Wax for THIS?

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2010-05-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

boring lah horh

2010-05-29T17:24:00.001+08:00

2010-05-25T20:22:00.003+08:00

2010-05-08T18:25:00.001+08:00

erm i think its like this

when exams/assignment due dates are coming, facebook seems like so interesting, you feel that you absolutely have to blog about everything that happened, you are hungry all the time, you want to dive into your bed and prolly sleep forever, and all of a sudden, even the amazing race is worth watching. no offense but i totally thought the show is just about a bunch of people running around the world, pretty pointless. the only plus side, its around the world.

anyways, i want shaker fries like NOW

MOODY

2010-05-06T20:37:00.001+08:00

I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO LOOK FORWARD TO MONDAYS

I AM GOING NUTS

HOW HOW HOW

WHY FIND ARTICLES SO HARD ONE

I LIKE THIS SONG BUT I DON'T KNOW THE TITLE VERY FRUSTRATING

OK I KNOW THE TITLE ALREADY HEHE

I CANNOT WRITE LIT REVIEW AND STUDY AND FIND ARTICLE AND COLLECT DATA AND STUDY AT THE SAME TIME

I DON'T LIKE AH

I WANT TO WATCH HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER VERY NICE I LIKE BARNEY HE VERY FUNNY BUT HE GAY WHY EVERYBODY GAY

OK I NEED TO FIND ARTICLES ALREADY

2010-05-05T17:00:00.002+08:00

FAT.

lazyyyy

2010-05-01T16:28:00.001+08:00

heyyy people.

im kinda proud of myself cos i finally managed to upload allllll the pics on fb despite fb being a bitch. uploaded the butter pics too. (:

alright since i was back from india, i've been having lotsa wierd dreams. it makes me so tired. i dreamt that i was on the moon with jenab, i dreamt of komodo dragons and snakes, RED snakes. yess, freaky i know. does anybody knows how not to dream?? and being paranoid as i am, i googled my reptiles dream.

Reptile
If a reptile attacks you in a dream, there will be trouble of a serious nature ahead for you. If you succeed in killing it, you will finally overcome obstacles. People are gossiping against you and beware of hidden enemies. Need to be cautious in business affairs. To dream that you are attacked by a reptile, forewarns of a serious problem ahead for you. A friend will betray and slander you.

omg!

anyways, butter wasn't that fun last sat. prolly cos most people went zouk instead. ): but i still hope my sis had fun cos its her bday. i think i need to party more before that horrible(i know its gonna be) 6 weeks of attachment and then the 3 months of prcp. so im really looking forward to this june thingyy.

2010-04-26T22:39:00.002+08:00

appreciation and gratitude

that hard?

2010-03-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

bye singapore.

well, soon anyway.

pictures will be up if i manage to snap any. (:

im homesick already.

2010-03-24T15:36:00.000+08:00

ROFL

YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS

drift away

2010-02-28T15:41:00.000+08:00

***

bbq was great.

could have been better if hamy was there.

im gonna miss her for three weeks. ):

2010-02-23T00:15:00.001+08:00

LAST PAPER.

i hope the second round of yusheng i just had will give me luck. (:

GONG XI FA CAI

2010-02-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

i.hate.the.exams

ok what a way to start cny. i wasn't really surprised that pharmaco paper was hard. cos learning and memorizing about drugs are hard. but im not saying that ns2 will be easy, i just didn't expect it to have SO MANY pathophysiology questions. i only memorized those stupid care plans, not much help of course. and ns1, im not gonna say no more. please please please, i don't wanna repeat. ):

should i change my phone? omnia II? omnia pro? iphone? hmm. oh did i mention that i got charged 40 bucks for "accidentally" using gprs to surf the net on my phone? and thats excluding the usual bill. im gonna deactivate it soon. wtf like kena cheated. they said i only used it for like less than a day. 40 bucks?! now im like paranoid. zz

somewhere only we know

2010-02-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

im having a massive headache for the first time. damn it sure hurts. been having lots of exams lately, plus the upcoming exams. year 2 stinks. but im happy cos i managed to get an A for nsl. hehehe lets hope theory test won't pull it down shall we.

went jp just now and as the train passed by the new location of jvs, i laughed out loud.

2010-01-31T13:41:00.000+08:00

comfort food. i like^^

2010-01-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

so, i got it all mixed up. i'll have my exams four days after the second day of cny. my bad, heh.

but still, its the exam week. urgh

anyways, i gotta get more t-shirts and jeans for india. no tanktops or shorts. hope i won't get heat strokes

oh, i finished the lovely bones. both the book and the movie.

bittersweet.

2010-01-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

omg i hate my life.

nobody can be more suay than us. nobody. im having my fucking end of year exam on the second day of the fucking chinese new year. cny for god's sake! i love cny! i swear ive never missed any cny in my entire life. and guess what? the first paper is none other than the toughest of them all. pharmacology. fucking drugs.

and stupid year three is coming. stupid fyp. you know. when you're doing projects, its not only the work that is demanding. its the people too. if only its just us doing it. big sigh. plus its not only fyp, there's still the never-ending attachments too. i dont even dare to think about it manz

and there's one more thing on my mind. should i sign the bond with sgh? you know i could do good with the money. my family discourage me but friends encourage me. dilema much? advantages: monthly income i so need, erm actually thats about all. disadvantages: all the usual stuffs. bad stuffs. omg idk. if i sign the bond and work through the 2 years and hopefully escape unscathed, then im more or less free. i can go abroad to work(their pay is way higher in u.s.a you couldn't even imagine) or further my studies. or i can progress to research nursing i so loathe if not for the good pay, or other jobs related to the medical field. if i dont sign the bond, and if i dont work as a nurse, i can be..er nothing. unless i go for those disgusting jobs that only needs an o lvl cert. which means im wasting my life and $ away right now. every minute of it.

im having a major headache now.

i need words of wisdom desperately from somebody who's been through this

and gosh im so $_$ it makes me sad

2010-01-09T23:14:00.003+08:00

i have been having really bizzare dreams. really.

i dreamt that sylvia ratonel is standing right infront of me, something about imh in nuh etc

does that mean something?

holy shit

if there's one thing i could change: stop being paranoid

ok no pictures because im lazy to transfer them from my cam plus the comp is ancient, wouldn't want it to die on me cos i don't have money to buy a new one and its getting late i want to sleep. ok im lazy

ciao back to my book

2010-01-03T22:30:00.004+08:00

***

i've been having lots of wierd dreams lately

they're kinda comforting, or just plain sad i don't know

i get the warm and fuzzy feeling inside me,
but its gone as soon as i realized its fake

is it good or bad that i can't seem to care that much anymore?

***
hello school, i hate you
somebody once asked me why i love to read
because i figured getting lost in someone else's stories keeps me from thinking about my own problems,
thats why

2009-12-29T00:09:00.000+08:00

I think i love hard rock. A LOT.

it was superb. i was mad drunk on boxing day, and im still waiting for maymay to fill me in the details. one thing i remember, it was generous enough of the bartenders to let me, this mad woman, behind the bar top and learn the tricks from them. but i fail miserably due to the ahem hindrance of alcohol ahem. actually its my poor hand-eye coordination.

BUT. i can never never enjoy the night. i came home and vomitted more than 10 times, doctor said i should be rushed to the hospital (lol). apparently i was poisoned by the stupid mushroom soup. omfg story of my life.

2009-12-22T15:07:00.004+08:00

Tyra taught us those major intense eyes

i spent so much $ yesterday. 313@somerset is the new vivo, only better. i must be crazy but i have to say, retail therapy work wonders.
time passes so slow today.
i don't want the holidays to end.
time to tan.
which is worse; going with people i don't know or not going at all?
ciao

i hate that song because it reminds me of you, you, you

2009-12-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

Letting go isn't a one time thing, it's something you do everyday, over and over again.

Yes its true. So fucking true.

But hatred is a curved blade. The harm we do, we do to ourselves.

2009-12-12T19:12:00.000+08:00

Attachments eat away my sanity.

sadly, im addicted

2009-12-07T20:22:00.000+08:00

Hard Rock is DOPE because,

sex on the beach is awesome

live band is superb

the bartender is hott

\ m /

team jacob ftw

2009-12-04T13:20:00.001+08:00

HAHA! i would too!

sigh. all these stressful late night studying had finally taken its toll on my face. ok so i decided to recuperate at home today. lol. anyway, caught NEW MOON yesterday. like omg! a tad too draggy and drama perhaps, but its kinda worth it. loved it. T.L's so so so hot. he almost remained half nekkid throughout, its kinda distracting. hehehe. and D.F is so jane-ish omg.

hard rock tomorrow. woots
that conversation the other day completely took me by surprise and freak me out. why are you like that?

2009-11-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

whats left?

exam period = exam + period

2009-11-27T18:17:00.000+08:00

i swear im gonna murder this computer with my bare hands someday. seriously, can you be any slower and stupider? omg, just looking at you makes me wanna throw you out of the window. sucker/loser

okay so exam is coming. like really really soon. 3 more days? 3 MORE FREAKIN DAYS ONLY?! and i havent been studying alot. i just read through, no, i just stared at the first page of ns2. all i know is how to spell gastritis. and its not even a spelling test. DUH. anyways, so the last day of exam is 3rd dec. 3RD DEC!! new moon is out!! hehehehe should i buy the tix online? nono, too kiasu. i can't wait! :DD

i was wondering, why the bloody hell the 100 bucks havent come in yet? and oh, happy hari raya haji people! ciao

2009-11-15T01:01:00.001+08:00

sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare?

makes me cry

can't be bothered

can't wait for the day (:
.

2009-10-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

i still think about it sometimes. alot of times. everytime i thought its okay, it'll somehow find its way back and haunt me again. a viscious cycle. i wish i could just have that part of my memories removed. but i know i'll never be the same again. i can't figure it out too.

i wanna knock you down, chop off your head, stab your chest, break your leg, inflict pain on you, do everything possible that'll make you suffer as much as i did.

ok its all bs

2009-10-20T20:53:00.001+08:00

baddd hair day

okay, im back. after the gruesome attachment and pathetic holidays of whats left. and yes, i regretted not going out enough. i should have totally partied like theres no tomorrow. dang.

but one thing for sure, thank god for passing my CA.

went Butter with my lovely ladies last wed. ladies' night people. free entry, free flow, awesome. a lot of hotties too! you know, its always a bonus. (: saw some of the jvs seniors, danced and hanged out abit. the night was crazy, with the drama and the crazy people. and its always fun to look back and laugh with the girls. sweet.

school's started and im sick. sore throat, fever, flu. damn hardcore. but i don't wanna lag behind. and so i went to school anyway. haha spread the flu bug. (:

***

life's made up of obstacles, yes. and you gotta get through them. but bear in mind that once they are over, nobody's gonna be more proud of you than yourself.

2009-10-04T21:13:00.005+08:00

♥ ♥ Paper Heart
.

2009-09-11T19:04:00.000+08:00

oh thank god, blogger is normal now. although still quite wierd. anyways, i've been feeling so down recently. read hamyy's blog a couple of days ago, came across one of her entries. its like i suddenly realise now that she's right. we don't really need to care what others think. just live our life. fuck it. fuck this people. fuck nursing. fuck logbook. fuck s. fuck attachment. fuck stress. fuck them. fuck her.

i really really hate attachments. i do. i learn things, yes. but i fucking hate attachments. i hate the patients. i hate the staffs. i hate everybody there. especially those fucking teachers. we have enough stress already. just fucking help us, okay. dammit. full of shit. everythings full of shit. btw, district 9 is really good.

hello hello world

2009-09-06T19:40:00.006+08:00

well, a week of holidays zoomed by unsurprisingly. i didn't go out, i spent my time on the internet watching movies. like ALOT of movies. but im actually not bored at all, in fact, im loving it. anyways, i've found some really funny and cool videos. enjoy y'all!

<br/><a href="http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-US&vid=5db01b36-af64-41f0-91b8-ef86e818f69b" target="_new" title="Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon-Levitt Cinemash "Sid and Nancy"">Video: Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon-Levitt Cinemash "Sid and Nancy"</a>

<br/><a href="http://video.msn.com/video.aspx?mkt=en-US&vid=304364f2-e037-48b6-9ffe-8f67ad6539b1" target="_new" title="Channing Tatum and Charlyne Yi Cinemash "Dirty Dancing"">Video: Channing Tatum and Charlyne Yi Cinemash "Dirty Dancing"</a>

2009-07-26T17:44:00.002+08:00

blogger is stupid

2009-07-15T18:49:00.004+08:00

im not dead. yet.

well, these few days had been hectic for me. actually not really, prolly its cos i have no break after that sucky attachment. alright, i got a B+ for that. but not even a practice column signed for assessing of vital signs. best part, i got that teacher again for my BCLS. everything seems to be going wrong. okay, not gonna dwell on it.

anyways, shopping is so so therapeutic. i've never felt so good. grabbing what catches my eye, and for the first time not regretting what i've got. that's awesome, even better than durian ice-cream cake. now im just waiting for my dear friend, denim jacket. woohoo

something's seriously wrong with me recently, i don't quite know what. its like you're searching for something and then realized after a long time that its actually on your hand. that kinda thing. its happened to me quite a few times. wierd. and i've been burping alot too. sometimes 4 in a row. not that i've been counting...

have i mentioned that im watching HARRY POTTER tomorrow? i've even bought the tix in advance. kiasu=shiok (:

2009-07-06T21:15:00.003+08:00

ahem, but why do i have the feeling she is copying her?

tsktsk. not good.

2009-07-06T16:43:00.002+08:00

what is your goddamn problem with us? can't you just sign those fucking skills? its handwashing and temperature taking for fuck's sake. do i have to do like a million times to earn that signature? worst still, you wouldn't even see us do them. then may i know why the fuck are you here? just to eat those fucking meals and take those fucking long breaks chit-chatting? if i were you, i'll get this over and done with. i know you loathe this as much as we do. i did my homework, in fact i did my best. i revised those fucking skills only to realise that nobody is fucking there to assess me. and please, please don't make empty promises. if you promise you'll be there, please be there alright. if not, you can always fucking text us. so i wouldn't have to wake up so goddamn early and catch the first train and run 500 metres. we don't all own cars you know. oh yeah, not even a word of sorry from you. its no longer about whether you're the teacher or not, its the basic manners for fuck's sake. even a 3 year old could say sorry, what are you? 93? you know, you are the one getting paid for doing this shit. so i suggest you'd better do it well.

life with you, SUCKS.

2009-06-28T18:16:00.004+08:00

OH MY GODDDDDD.

tomorrow's my doomsday! i know its gonna suck, but i'll just keep telling myself that, 'if i get through this, im gonna be so invincible'. its true. but first, can i complain that KKH IS SO FRIGGIN FAR? i have to walk like a thousand miles after alighting at LITTLE INDIA STATION----my biggest fear. imagine having to walk a thousand miles back to the train station at 9pm, alone. maybe i'll just take cab everyday, oh which reminds me, I DON'T GET ANY ALLOWANCE DURING THIS ATTACHMENT!! and did i mention that i have no friggin friends? they are all having their much anticipated holidays now. hawww. 'if i get through this, im gonna be so invincible. if i get through this, im gonna be so invincible. if i get........'

nevertheless, i went out with maymay(!) yesterday. man, i missed her so much. and hamyyy! and jenab! hawww. she accompanied me to KKH and im so sorry she had to walk the thousand miles with me that almost caused her(and me) to faint halfway. and i hope she'll get well soon, if not, sooner or later people would mistaken it for swine flu! okay not exactly funny. anyways, we later went to vivo and caught Drag Me To Hell. omg, i have to say its really creepy and disgusting. the thought of it still makes me wanna gag. i wouldn't have watched it if not for Justin Long, seriously. and as a result i couldn't sleep at night, i kept thinking of that old lady and stuffs. so i was saying, i decided to tune in to the radio in hopes of some music to distract me. now guess what, Thriller came on the minute i tuned in. and that scared the shit outta me.

anyways, i didn't mean to be disrespectful towards Michael Jackson okayyy.

Rest In Peace MJ, i will miss your moonwalk for sure. and also to Farah Fawcett, whom my mom used to have her trademark hairstyle, may you meet the Angels and be one of them.

2009-06-20T18:46:00.002+08:00

the first thing my granny thought of when she learnt that i fell down is buying 4D.

and i didn't know the importance of peace and quiet till now. pfffffff

2009-06-19T15:42:00.002+08:00

i tripped over my own foot. now i've got 2 bloody knees and a sore ankle. i wasn't even running.

2009-06-18T22:33:00.001+08:00

taylor swift is standing at a shocking 180cm!

yeah you heard me.

***

Just Married
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A young woman was preparing for her wedding. She asked her mother to go out and buy a nice long black negligee and carefully place it in her suitcase so it would not wrinkle. Well, Mom forgot until the last minute. So she dashed out and could only find a short pink nighty. She bought it and threw it into the suitcase.

After the wedding the bride and groom enter their hotel room. The groom was a little self-conscious so he asked his new bride to change in the bathroom and promise not to peek at each other while they got ready for bed. While she was in the bathroom, the bride opened her suitcase and saw the negligee her mother had thrown in there. She exclaimed, "Oh no! It's short, pink, and wrinkled!"

Then her groom cried out, "I told you not to peek!"

***

HA HA HA

2009-06-17T21:41:00.006+08:00

what the fuck.

***

Life aint always beautiful

Sometimes it's just plain hard

Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life aint always beautiful

You think you're on your way

And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger

And the changes make you wise

And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful

Tears will fall sometimes

Life aint always beautiful

But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful

Some days I miss your smile

I get tired of walkin all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute

I could see your pretty face

Guess I can dream, but life don’t work that way

But the struggles make me stronger

And the changes make me wise

And happiness has its own way of takin it's sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful

But i know i'll be fine

Hey, life aint always beautiful

But it's a beautiful ride

What a beautiful ride

2009-06-16T23:35:00.004+08:00

gotten up this morning, well afternoon, and ran errands around the neighbourhood. bought myself lunch and a milk tea. passed by the dental clinic and wondered if i should do something about my chipped tooth. the weather's super hot and so i went into 7-11 for the air-con. i guess my point is, i bought an issue of cleo and IT'S AWESOME! omg, the fashion and all. it's all coming back to me, i'm gonna go shopping tomorrow and raid all the sales counter! hohoho, but first, is GSS still on?

well nevermind. anyways, i attacked the huge piles of old and unwanted clothes today. guess what? i found this cute babydoll dress and a short tank top. i then cut the top of the babydoll dress and the bottom of the tank top and sew them together. voila! an one-piece dress! (well technically, i did not sew them. the tailor did. and i haven't seen the end-product yet cos i brought it to the tailor only today) and so i'm getting them back tomorrow! so excited! hope it's pretty! (:

2009-06-15T15:34:00.007+08:00

i woke up to a massive stomach cramp today, which explains why i'm at home instead of town with xm. and i totally don't understand why you have to clean the windows and nag at me while i'm having my breakfast and watching television. yes, just leave me alone. but i still appreciate the super tidy room i have now. thanks anyway.
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let me tell you guys what i've done today, it's absolutely cool. i woke up grumpily, ate my breakfast, trying to shut out noises but also at the same time, listening to the tv. later, while mom is hoovering the living room, i went to the bedroom to get outta her way. when i came out, the tv is already switched off. and mom is happily mopping the floor, satisfied with herself i guess. irritated, i stormed back into my bedroom, switched on the crappy computer. and then proceeded to type an email to KBS. till now i'm still somehow composing that freaking email. browsed through fb(i'm getting sick of it btw), fml, lookbook, blogs and the msn top 10 list(something like that). i'm gonna share it with you guys, pretty interesting stuffs.

What's the point?

1) Male nipples.

Beating off stiff competition from underarm hair and wisdom teeth, male nipples sit proudly at the top of our most useless body parts list. We know why men have nipples, but that doesn’t negate the fact that they serve no practical purpose—they do not, ordinarily, produce milk.

2) Unicycle

As its name suggests, a unicycle is similar to a bicycle but it only has one wheel. The effects of removing a wheel are all negative. Balancing on a unicycle requires much more effort and leads to a much greater likelihood of falling off. Taking away a wheel is also much slower. The maximum speed reached on a unicycle is approximately 35 km/h (22 mph).

3) Spam

The chances of someone responding to spam is approximately one in 12.5 million. It may be extremely cheap to market a product by sending out junk e-mails, but surely such an enormous failure rate should deter even the most persistent person... Please?

4) Denten Railway Station

As dead as a station in the Australian outback, the unstaffed railway station in Denton, Manchester has got to be Britain’s most redundant railway stop. One train per week stops at Denton on Saturday mornings. But be warned: Denton is a request stop, so it may be necessary to flag the train down using your arms. To make matters worse, there are no return tickets to Denton—the weekly service runs only in one direction. You can leave, but you won’t be coming back again in a hurry.

5) Four-poster Beds

Bedrooms are a relatively modern concept: before the eighteenth century, beds simply stood in the living room, being used as couches by day. Four-poster beds were by-products of this dual function, for they allowed curtains to hang around the bed during the night to keep out draughts and to offer privacy. Needless to say, 21st-century houses come equipped with both bedrooms and insulation, making the four-post element of these beds redundant. Yet they remain popular, with almost all furniture shops offering various forms of curtained, elaborate and ornate four-poster beds.

6) Capital Letters

We all know that capital letters indicate the start of each sentence. But why do we need to mark the start of a sentence when the humble full stop has already marked the end? The limited use of capital letters in text speak or in casual emails indicates that capitals are a superfluity to the language, rather than a necessity. In fact, the majority of writing systems—including Georgian, Arabic, Hebrew and Chinese—do not have an upper and lower case system.

7) All the varieties of Pasta shapes

Various shapes of pasta have different flavours, textures, cooking times, and each must be used in the appropriate context. Obviously, it’s important to get the right pasta for the right sauce. After all, lasagne wouldn’t be lasagne if it weren’t for those thin layers of baked pasta nestled between the sauce and cheese. However, is there really any point to lasagnette (a narrower version of lasagne) or lasagnotte (a longer version of lasagna)? Or does the average person really care whether they’re eating penne rigate (penne with ridged sides), penne lisce (penne with smooth sides), penne zita (penne with a slightly wider hole), or pennette (penne that is slightly shorter and thinner)? I would hazard a guess at no.

8) The word 'Inflammable'
The in- prefix of inflammable means ‘into’, rather than ‘not’, leaving us with two words—flammable and inflammable—with exactly the same meaning. But not only is the word inflammable needless, it is also dangerous. When labelling commercial and industrial products, ‘flammable’ is considered to be the safer choice because of the potentially disastrous consequences of misinterpreting ‘inflammable’. To add to the confusion, the word most frequently used to convey the opposite meaning to flammable is nonflammable, but noninflammable also exists.

9) The SysRq key on your keyboard
The system request key (SysRq), which now shares its place with the Print Screen button, has sat on the top row of keyboards since the very first PCs were made. Way back then, it was included on the keyboard in case anyone wanted to reach the main operating system without interrupting the running software. Nobody ever did. It is a redundant fixture, serving no purpose in Windows or any other operating system.

10) Ties
Ties once served a sociological purpose: archaeological evidence in China suggests that the ancient elite hung fabric around their necks as a means of marking their elevated status. But now that mankind has invented other ways of exhibiting wealth—the Ferrari parked in the driveway, or the penthouse in Park Lane—ties no longer serve such a function. So dangling coloured material from around the neck does what, exactly?

after spending 20mins copying and pasting this list, i realise that i'm just as bored as the person who created this. and i can't believe i said 'pretty interesting stuffs' either.

holy crap.

2009-06-14T15:50:00.005+08:00

ohh my gawd. i still can't believe exam is overrrrrrrr. 5 days of hardwork. i hope it pays off. anyways, went out with the girls on friday night. yupyup, i had fun. and i didn't know such a big bottle of heineken the size of champagne bottle costs only 7bucks. there's always gooooooooooood deal with hamyy around. love her totally.

hamyy told me something the other day. she said this time round we didn't have three weeks holidays. which means after my attachment there's no another week of hols. my point is, i can't spend the last week with them cos they are in the first batch. earlier on i went to mel and check out my roster. to my horror, i'm in different shift as the only girl i thought i could hang out with. now can i say FML?
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geez, i gotta stop being so pessimistic already. on a lighter note, i'm going out with xm again tomorrow! and aifang on wed! ecstatic-ness. i'm gonna spend my hols catching up with old friends like nobody's business. and also shop like nobody's business. (: but i'm still gonna miss my girls while they slog away at nuh. hawww. oh yeah, i'm working morning shift on the last day of my sucky attachment, so i was thinking...
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rent a couple of dvds yesterday. ahh begining of my couch potato habit. i'm starting to realize i've got a thing for sadistic movies. holy shit. funny games u.s was okayyy, hard candy was alot better. the happening was just wierd. now i'm looking for Grimm Love aka Rohtenburg. hmmm, but romance comedy is still the best. (:

oh yeah, i dreamt of adam lambert yesterday. ???

2009-06-10T19:53:00.003+08:00

3 down, 2 to go

yes, yes i can do it. (:

anyways, i didn't know nsl is only a half hour paper, and i screwed it completely. blah blah blah, not gonna think no more. btw, the new heineken comercial is hilarious.

2009-06-04T23:24:00.003+08:00

HEYHEY.

went out with xianmei and grace just now! i know! its been 2 years since i've seen xianmei, and 4 years since i've seen grace! grace really changed alot! she grew out her hair( its now wavyyyyyy ), grew taller than me and i love her bag! xianmei changed too! longer hair, but still as fair! hahaha! omg i can't believe it, time really flies. seriously! i still remember we three were the best best of friends during secondary 1 and 2. yeah and we were so crazy over avril lavigne yadayada. felt totally great reminiscing with them. talking about the stupid stuffs we did, how our classmates changed, omg really! hope to meet up with them again soooooooon! (:

2009-05-27T21:20:00.003+08:00

okay, ive decided to lose some weight to fit in that goddamn-small-but-pretty little black dress. everybody's gotta have at least one little black dress. that's mine, and im bloody gonna fit in no matter what. period.

i have to get my ass off my couch and hit the gym/road asap. A.S.A.P

***

anyways, my nsl prac test is over! not so much complaining and groaning this time round huh. its kinda smooth for me, and i hope the lecturer give me at least a B. ive gotton my PDA already but im too lazy to even charge it. actually im not very interested in it. but i gotta admit that its convenient. but its freaking ugly though. oh well, you just can't have both. just like the CA.

good friends in same course same class, yes.

good friends in same course same attachment period, hell no.

by the way, have i mentioned that im hopelessly addicted to fb? i was still figuring out what was the hype about fb earlier on. now looks who's talking.

2009-05-24T22:09:00.002+08:00

ive always thought they would get married. didn't expect it to end like this. seriously, omg im so shocked, still.

* * *

on a much lighter note, I GOT FACEBOOK ALREADY!

like finally (i know).

2009-05-22T18:33:00.004+08:00

Random

* * *

right so, sister forgot to bank in the CA money. Im still stuck in the bloody 2nd batch. 2 more projects to hand in next week. NSL practical test on next tuesday. Common test in two weeks time. Alot of movies to watch. Im starting to daydream more.

SHOOT.ME

YAY! kris allen won! (:

2009-05-19T22:10:00.003+08:00

OMG.OMG.OMG

BIG FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK

THE KBS IS BIG FUCK. STILL WANNA ACT POLITE SAY HI TO US THAT DAY. I REALLY THINK HE'S GOT SOMETHING AGAINST ME. OK FINE LET ME DIE ALONE THEN.

east coast was fun. loved it. (:

2009-05-11T21:08:00.005+08:00

Don't waste your whole life trying to get back what was taken away

Son.Of.Bitch.Everything's.Real

i had a nightmare last night, or was it the night before, it doesn't matter anyway. thing is, i dreamt that there's only 20bucks left in my bank. i almost fainted, in my dream, literally.

when is the CA money coming in?

I aim to be somebody that somebody trusts, with her delicate soul I don't claim to know much except soon as you start to make room for the part that aren't you, it gets harder to bloom in a garden of love, love love love

let's go play hangover(:

2009-05-10T17:04:00.006+08:00

im terribly sorry, i shouldn't have post that lameshit the other day. it sounded stupid and i certainly didn't see that one coming. im just saying, you know. you don't have to do anything.

* * *

this is total crap. im feeling like crap. i don't exactly know why, but most likely i think its pms. i've never felt quite like this before. when will this end? bloody hell. i just feel like crying for 5 hours and then strangle everyone else. yes, i know it sounded sick but no, im not kidding. 360 moodswings, pain in the breasts, gigantic pimples, easily irritated, its everything at once, like a package. except of course i didn't signed it.

sometimes i think i've got like some kind of OCD or something. i'll fuss over my chipped tooth for like 2 weeks, imagine i didn't hand in my assignment when i was the first to do so, worry about that stray hair sticking out that i cant smooth in, getting uneasy when things don't reach whole number (idk how to explain) and so on. yeah, as if i don't know, there are greater things in life than worrying about a chipped tooth. i know i know.

i fell down last friday afternoon at the staircase, in front of quite a crowd, while going to buy subway chocolate chip cookies. bingo, all sold out. which means i.bloody.fell.for.nothing. and you know what? bad things don't come alone. yes, i missed the wedding dinner. funny how i got so mad and irritated when in the first place, i didn't even want to go. actually its not about whether i did go or not. its just that i cancelled the much awaited night out because they said its disrespectful if i didn't go. so okay, i rushed home and guessed what? they can't wait for me to bathe and went right ahead. turns out i have to eat instant noodles and be at home all alone. perfect.

gosh, this pms thingy is killing me...and soon the people around me too. right so, imma off to scream my head off. tata

by the way, hamyy if you're reading this, i love you and talk to me if you got probs. okay random

2009-05-01T17:53:00.006+08:00

Doomsdayyyyyyy

life's a bitch these days. i gotta go shopping soon. ):
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okay, i hate to admit this but, im so totally freaked out by this 2012 doomsday thingy. i've even read up wikipedia and now the mayan calender, the nibiru collision and all the dates are still floating around in my head. if its real, i'll only be freaking 21 years old. great, isn't it? right so, where the hell is bruce willis?

anyway, the other day i went to hamy's place 'to do proj' and finally i got the chance to see her kitten, chomel. she's so so so active you wouldn't believe she's a cat. and the moment she saw me, she's like ready to charge and fight. oh myy, i went from aww-ing her cuteness to screaming for my dear life. that's the moment when i realise how harmless maymay's dog, mimi, is, apart from her threatening barks.
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by the way, i've decided i might have a thing for homegrown music after all. yesterday i watched Hard Candy. it was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! watch out, all these pedophiles. (:

2009-04-26T22:39:00.001+08:00

Here,

books, books and more books. im lovin' it.

2009-04-25T15:22:00.003+08:00

No, not fireworks,

okay firstly, now i know why friends thought i was crazy looking forward to school. secondly, all, yes, ALL the lecturers are _____. lastly, last night was crap. but luckily i still got my lovely babes to help me get by those mundane stuffs.

the weather is so annoying these days. so bloody hot.

oh god, that familiar sting in my nose, a lump in my throat so huge it threatened to choke me. you should know why i deleted that whole list of links. but still, i couldn't help but memorise by heart. so what's the use of deleting? its completely redundant. sometimes i just feel like punching myself till i faint, cos i still can't help but wonder, will i run into you when i go st james or zouk?

* * *

would we get that old time feelin', would we talk and laugh for hours?

2009-04-19T21:38:00.003+08:00

Hey folks, guess what? that excitement and anticipation of 'first day of school' is finally back! i feel like shouting woohoo and i don't exactly know why. probably cos in the past i thought school was sucha a whore, but after the excruciating, knife-constantly-on-my-throat attachment, i finally appreciate the days spent in school doing assignments, revising tests and sandwich lunches spent at the plastic tables, people-watching and talking about how the bookshop auntie is obviously biased and the countless laughter with girlfriends over nothing and everything. Tomorrow. (:

i think my blog is stupid. im bored of the skin, there's something wrong with the tagboard and so on. but geez, im sooooo lazy to change it. i've searched for quite a few good ones, but im just lazy to get down with it y'know. this is just lame. my comp is stupid too. so many viruses and all. and now i can't even assess youtube. even i am laughing at myself. Ha-ha. and god, how many times must i remind myself? xh, you gotta save up your cash! for rainy days/exceptionally good bargains! well, though the latter seems more important to an 18-year-old but hey, whatever, you.just.gotta.save!

in some way, im so caught up in this girl's blog. the way she writes, her thinking, the pictures of her, her uncanny resemblance to vanessa hudgens and especially the music on her blog. like wow. i'll bet she scores an A1 for her english. anyways, im just saying, okay.

the other day i came across the trailer of My Sister's Keeper, the upcoming film based on a book by Jodi Picoult and boy, am i amazed. i've read the book ages ago and i truly hope that the movie's gonna be in singapore soon. maybe this movie'll make me cry. strangely, i really like watching movies. i think i've spent a fortune on movies alone. dang, which reminds me, im.so.broke.now. D:

your smile makes me happy when things make me sad

2009-04-12T15:33:00.003+08:00

Hey, this is for you.

i had a great night with you. i felt guilty cos it should be me taking care of you, not you of me. i hope you'll cheer up a little bit more, for yourself. i know this is tough, but you're not alone. you gotta be strong, girl.

Every step you're taking,

every move you made feel lost with no direction,

your faith is shaking, but

you gotta keep trying, gotta keep your head held high

* * *

Friday night, wow, its a blast.

its the best and the worst night of my life, altogether. i don't even know where to start. or should i say i don't remember many parts of it. we went to sentosa for half a freaking hour. then we went to eski and the next thing i knew, im washing my freaking foot in the bathroom sink. and my butt hurts, i think i fell alot of times. my 40bucks gladiators are so ruined, but i still felt happy.

as for the crazy cow, you're disgusting. i wonder how you'll chase after criminals with your big jiggly belly. oh right, i forgot. you only target those sleeping quietly by the park bench waiting for the first bus. if i have the money, do you think i'll be there? wait till the next time the girl you found on the park bench turns out to be your daughter, then i'll be like, 'look who's the idiot?' HOHOHO

whatever it is, its fun. i bet its even better than zouk.

2009-04-03T19:01:00.006+08:00

So, why don't you meet me down behind the old school? we'll waste away the weekend with perfect regard for how cavalier we used to be, that beautiful insanity, the apathy's surrounding me, don't close your eyes or we'll fade away

* * *

aye, aye, i'm still breathing, folks.

attachment's no good. met all kinds of people, people that makes me laugh, people that makes me angry. trips to the clean utility room every afternoon became me and rongrong's routine. we laughed, joked, complained and daydreamed. and my $40 shoe's breaking into two pieces. talk about everbest. i still have to do those stupid case studies over the weekends, and also worry about those unsigned columns. couldn't life be any better?

celebrated maymay's birthday last monday. a pink candle with stacks of jollybean pancake's all we've gotten for her. yes, i'm super guilty. so,

I'M SORRY MAYMAY! I PROMISE I WILL GIVE YOU SOMETHING ELSE! LOVE YOU ALOT OK! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN! YOU CAN GO CLUBBING ALREADY!

lastly, i gotta admit. i've got another obsession

he's uber cute ok! especially when he's singing!

for some reason, he reminds me of jason castro. with the guitar and the facial expressions and everything.

2009-03-23T19:58:00.004+08:00

Today, i laughed, nua-ed, gossiped and laughed some more. i found out some things from my friends. and i just wanna say,

YOU ARE SO BUSTED! HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA!

yes, i still couldn't contain that evil smirk. its the new feel-good drug. woohoo!

2009-03-19T18:18:00.003+08:00

I've weathered all these storms,

but I just turn them into wind, so I can fly,

what don't kill you makes you stronger,

when I take my last breath,

that's when I'll just give up

having too much time just allows me to think and ponder, you know, what's next? after completing my diploma. should I just accept the fact that Im going into a profession I completely loathe, or should I give it a shot at other jobs I like, or should I study again, things like that. you know, we really can't afford to take the wrong step, even just one step. time never waits, it moves on, no matter you like it or not. regrets usually comes after that. it never spares. you know, maybe when Im a little older and have enough money, I'll just move somewhere else and open a B&B. then, I can enjoy the countryside and earn money as well! pretty good huh. I'll move to a country that has four seasons, cos I've never seen real snows and smell the leaves during the falls before. then when Im retired, I will have the money to travel around the world! wow, sounds great. hahhaha. but you know, things usually don't turn out as planned, so, Im just daydreaming.

i've been thinking, what if there's really a superman or spiderman somewhere in this world? what will it be like? can they really save us from fire or flood? it'll be pretty interesting then, people getting autographs from them instead of hollywood celebs. what if Im one of them? hahaha. then I want the mind-reading power. reading people's mind will be pretty cool. (:

the weather's pretty good these few days. raining in the nights, and sunny in the afternoons. I've been spending these lazy afternoons on my bed, reading books and snacking on chips and sweets. strangely, i didn't cry when I watched Marley and Me. but I did when I read the book. Haw, I want a dog too.

alright maymay, I know you're reading this, can you please please please remove that disgusting picture of me?? thanks loads, I still love you.

* * *

Never frown, because you'll never know when someone's falling in love with your smile. (:

2009-03-12T16:07:00.002+08:00

OMG! IM BACK Y'ALL!

thank god mommy asked me to on the computer to check whether her thumbdrive is working

if not i'll still be stuck reading boring books on my bed

haw. must really thank her yeah.

you know what is the definition of a pig? that is--me. okay i know this is really sad, but its true. holy mama. its like a routine for me everyday for the past 4 days. i woke up in the morning, well not exactly morning, around 12pm actually, then i brush my teeth and grab a cuppa. then im stuck on tv the whole day. to the extent that i know every single show that is going to air. pretty pathetic huh. and im so hooked on american idol! omg.

okay did i mention that im broke? well, i am. went to search for jobs with darling aifang on last wednesday? or thursday? anyways, we couldn't find anything. instead we went to watch He's just not that into you. its a really nice show, and funny too. i just love drew barrymore and justin long. they're a pretty handsome couple but too bad they broke up. anyways, the show is fantastic. catching up with aifang was great too. think about it, we've been friends for almost 8 years. wow. i hope we'll still keep in touch, for like forever. :D

i love the holidays! although it can be pretty boring sometimes. but i just love how i can afford to sleep in until the late afternoons and all that. hmm, im looking forward to going out with daisy tomorrow. cos she'll pay for everything! hey hey. and also i'll be going out with lovely maymay on saturday and next monday. just before we're imprison by the attachments. hmm, i'll ask hamy babe along too.

okay, okay. why am i so excited? get a grip man.

* * *

the colder, the better

2009-02-27T17:44:00.005+08:00

my computer is downnnnnnnnnnnnn

holy cow

its so in the pink of health during the exam period

what now? exam's over and then dang, its dead

geez, how timely could it be

to think i've to resort to blogging in the school's library!

right, 'nuff said.

actually i've got nothing much to say

just that i have alot of overdue pictures i cant upload

heh heh

so im off to lookbook

* * *

Why won't the world revolve around me?

Build my dreams, trees grow all over the streets

2009-02-18T14:06:00.003+08:00

sooner or later we'll just be looking back

and laugh at the silly things that were once important

but actually nothing's changed

we'll still be puzzled about what is going on

but right now, i'll just start on Pharmacology

and worry about nothing else.

halohalohalohalo

2009-02-16T22:38:00.004+08:00

yeah im studying. no actually im playing with my handphone, just that my obnoxious head block the view. ohhhoohoh. but actually i was really studying at macdonald's today with jenneth. hmm i've been a goodey good girl. (:

ceyyy

haw. exams are coming and this means im getting fatter. anyways, recently im so so so hooked on lookbook. to the extend that im having a list on what to buy. what to shop for. this ain't good news people. the numbers on my bankbook are decreasing.

no money = no life

* * *

i know i have issues

but you're pretty messed up too

* * *

wait, what? a thirteen-year-old daddy?!!

its okay, just work harder. (:

2009-02-15T19:01:00.004+08:00

You're gone from here

And soon you will disappear

Fading into beautiful light

Cause everybody's changing

And I don't feel right

its been hell the past week. busy finishing up projects, nr particularly. stayed in school till almost 10pm. yes, total boredom. finally completed the freakin' 2000 words assignment and realised we're doing it all wrong. did it all over again and i'm pretty surprised we're not dead yet. then it was the nsl pratical and written exam. i.screwed.it.completely. well, i'm not gonna dwell on it anymore this time. i'm just gonna do my very best on the exams starting this coming friday. yay.not

sometimes i'll think that obstacles in life just suck truckloads. but apparently, the more you hate them, the more they stick to you. well, this time it's the attachment. i'm all alone. but i have to learn to be independent sooner or later, yes? i just didn't expect it to be so soon. let's hope i will survive the 3 weeks of torment. on a slightly happier note, i got my jacket already! all smiles. (:

* * *

spend every single penny you've got, do things that you've always wanted, break the rules, swear at people you hated, hang out with friends who deserves you, travel to paris, eat cheesecakes everyday, sing in the rain,

and be happy.

thanks to my darling friend, i've learnt to speak up.

2009-02-08T00:34:00.004+08:00

Look, this is how it goes.

first, she befriend you. she did all sorts of things friends do. shopping, laughing, helping one another and of course, gossiping. gradually, over a period of time, you thought that she was no longer the friend you wanted to be with. she doesn't share the same interest as you. she did things differently from you. you realised she was good, just that you wanted something else. it was when you started hanging out with other friends who have a personality closer to you, who make you feel worthy.

BAM!, all of a sudden, you saw her hanging out with the people you two used to gossip. and then she started telling others how you never do your projects, how she helped you by asking you to hand in something to her(which she didn't even read) just so to let people know at least you did contribute something, how you were the bad guy, how you were so bad to gossip about others and so on.

of course you got angry. you thought this wasn't fair to you. then you confronted her, about the projects and maybe other things. after which, she text you. saying that she's sorry and she should have read the things(projects) you gave her and she's puzzled about the rumours you said that she had spread and she don't care what you thought of her.

and with that message, it makes you the ultimate bad guy. and people single bad guy out. funny? hell yes.

i heard this from somewhere, and i thought this is perfectly right--

you won't hate because you didn't love

you didn't love and thus you won't feel hurt

* * *

and i was being stupid to love a friend.

w.o.w

2009-02-06T22:39:00.006+08:00

if only we could just vanish like the smoke.

it all seems to be a joke to me. anyway, do whatever that makes you happy. at the end of the day, you just can't bluff yourself. cliche isn't it?

and you, don't ever let what others think and say get into your head. it may sound cheesy, but i think you're far better off than anyone else i've met, and will always be my pal. remember, you can count on me, like what you did when i need a friend. c'mon, you the man! :D

**i hope what i did today will cheer you up.

2009-02-04T21:41:00.006+08:00

im still sick!

anyways, red spots started appearing on my arms and thighs recently. went to see the doctor today and all i got was unrelated medicines like flu tablets, lozenges, gargle(yeah, wtf?) and a bunch more. cos she didn't know what are those irritating spots too. they don't itch, which by the way is a huge relief, but they are quite ugly. ): oh god, im gonna pray that they won't turn out to be chicken pox. i have to go for exams y'know.

school was hectic. projects and quizes and mock tests and presentations basically sum up mondays to fridays. wait, no i mean mondays to sundays. anyways, i've been spending a lot of time in school watching movies lately. its was superb. i love watching movies! i swear im gonna watch all the movies in the world. okay, that was lame.

* * *

sometimes i'll imagine there's a disaster which affected the whole world, something like The Day After Tomorrow. only im the sole survivor. then i'll just walk around, eat the food i like, watch as many movies as i can, read my favourite books, wear designer clothes,--everything will be free. no worries whatsoever.

yeah, i know. wishful thinking. if that really happened, i'll just be stuck in singapore forever anyway.

* * *

i dreamt of something terrible yesterday. i fear it may come true.

2009-02-01T20:27:00.007+08:00

'Sometimes everything has to go wrong for anything to go right.'

shit, im in dead trouble. someone save me. or kill me. aap practical is tomorrow and i don't even recognise a single thing. what's cerebrum? what's thalamus? maybe i don't even know what vagina looks like now. damn. okay im so screwed. so many things to remember, so little time. oh well, oh well.

and by the way, did i mention that people are disgusting? yes, maybe that includes me. sometimes this person looks as harmless as Puss in Boots could be an ultimate villain. friends you know probably for years could turn their backs on you, spouses could have an affair outside because their sick of your face or even your own flesh and blood could throw you in the old folk's home cos you no longer know how to control your bladder. that's life, a bitch. ultimately, we are all on our own. no such thing as 'i'll be there for you no matter what'. it's just what people says when they need to console others. they don't really mean it actually. i might sound pessimistic, but that's what i think. people are selfish.

a pity for you, pretty face. i thought you became so good suddenly. but no, i was wrong...again. i almost felt sorry for you. and there, you did it again. you don't get it, do you? im so sick of the cycle. trust, very funny.

funny how life catches up with you no matter how much you loathe it. even if all you want to do is dream, you still have to pay the monthly bills. you still have to eat. you still have to shit. so wake up, wake up from the perfect life you've created in your sleep. and face the harsh reality- the nasty boss, or the self-centered classmates.

C'est la vie.

or perhaps we should just live life to the fullest each and every day. maybe it'll help you reduce some wrinkles off your face or simply just make you feel good. smile more often, laugh it off. don't feel sorry for yourself, somewhere along the way, everything will just be what you wanted. karma has its own way of being fair, totally.

so so dead

2009-01-31T22:10:00.005+08:00

damn, im falling in love with those subway cookies.

i just realised i don't have the urge to blog anymore

im getting sooo lazy recently, plus i no longer know how to put my emotions into words

damn, whatever happened to me?

my life's been pretty boring too

even the cny this year seems dull to me

anyways, lets talk serious.

gosh, im like so so so dead

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nr presentation 5/2/09- incomplete
sawi presentation 3/2/09 (i think)
~~pharmaco presentation 29/1/09~~
~~fon presentation 23/1/09~~
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aap practical test 2/2/09
cmbio mock test 3/2/09
nsl theory test 11/2/09
less than 3 weeks to the finals
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i literally slept through the 3 weeks since school reopens
everything seems a blur to me
i can't recall anything
i guess its time to pull up my socks
starting from tomorrow onwards, i shall do my part properly (for projects), start revising for exams (esp. aap) and stop eating
c.o.o.l

*. * .*

right, i'll end this post after this pic

jenneth, who enjoys chopping my fringe, updating me on twilight news, and of course, helping me in everything. (:

happyCNY

2009-01-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :DDD

went around to relatives' house to bai nian this few days
was really surprised that most of my cousins have already break their voices
wow. time really flies.
gotten quite a number of ang pows
hmm its all goodey good
had a great reunion dinner
gosh, time to lose weight...again
greetings from big sis in india through the webcam
and technologies wowed my granny, she's so cute

too lazy to upload pictures
heh heh
next time next time. (:

* * *

shit happened yet again

ahhhh, yes yes remain nonchalant is the key

yeah i can do it.

messed up

2009-01-22T20:46:00.004+08:00

i had a bad day
and i hate Thursdays.
quite fucked up

i wanna have skrilla in my wallet too.

things change

2009-01-17T22:26:00.003+08:00

you know what? i don't care anymore. im sucha a wimp all this while and i haven't realised it till now. why do i have to please everyone out there? why do i have to feel so loserish when i didn't do anything? why do i have to be so affected by every single thing people said? it felt so bad sometimes its killing every single part of me. its not fun, no its not.

reality really gave me a tight slap in the face. why do you have to be such a bitch? i can't believe we were actually friends before. please do realise that you are not perfect. no one is. and go on, lead your own miserable life. don't ever pull other innocent people along with you. i know everyone is on your side, but who cares? as long as im happy. just go tell others how jealous you are of us. or you can bloody hell leave us alone. sometimes i wonder how can you talk to us like nothing happened. don't you feel guilty at all? we.are.not.dumb.asses

and you, you don't even know the whole story. you're just another victim. so don't ever judge us. but thank you anyway for whatever you've done for us.

im really pissed this time.

* * *

anyways, i need to read some good books already

to keep me from thinking about food every single second

to get lost again in fictional stories, creative endings and whatever

cny is coming, which means im becoming a fat pig soon

with lots of ba kwa and cookies and steamboat

but cny also means got ang pow money!

$_$

went hunting for my cny clothes with hamidoo just now

bought a pair of leggings, shoes and a tube dress and spent almost a hundred bucks

shiok!

but i think its not enough yet

maybe one more pair of shorts and a top?

hmm

pictures are with hamidoo

i'll add in once i got them.

peace out people, sweet dreams. (:

* * *

why do i feel nervous just looking at your picture?

2009-01-14T22:22:00.002+08:00

The world's a playground.

You know that when you are a kid, but somewhere along the way everyone forgets it.

2009-01-10T19:51:00.002+08:00

don't hate my past, embrace it.

yeah im trying, very hard i guess
memories are vague but i don't care
i don't want any of it, not anymore
kinda contradicting myself
i, too, don't know what i want
can't make up my mind
but it doesn't really matter anymore
cos i can't turn back time
i can't blame anyone too
have to learn to live with it
guess its only normal to reminisce time to time
i did a stupid mistake a year ago
don't wish to repeat it
a valuable lesson learnt, just that it comes with horrible consequences
i have to pick myself up eventually
no use sitting by the river, drinking and crying my eyes out
for something that, i know, is irreversible

add a fullstop to this and everything will be just fine.

purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect

2009-01-07T10:13:00.007+08:00

YO. SUP BABES.

Mon, 5/1/09

had mac for brunch cos we had a freaking 4 hours of break

but it was all gooooood

took like what, 300+ pictures on jen's webcam

im like so addicted to webcam this few days lah

it makes my skin fairer. ohhoho

anyways, had a duper good time with hamyy and jen

laughed until i shit

and we cabbed back to our school cos we were too lazy to walk plus the sun was soo scorching

ran a pathetic 5 laps for snw

and played the murderer game with fellow soccer mates while it poured

the weather can be so unpredictable

anyways, i love rongrong the changi bitch and other bitches! (:

watched mr. woodcock with jen and hamyy after that

it was an okay film

except for one part, mr woodcock fell on his face while being pushed by john farley

it was so hilarious we had to rewind like 3 times. LOL

this about summed up my monday.

Tues, 6/1/09

school was not bad

hamyy was like sooooooooo damn hilarious

i can laugh with her for almost anything

cant imagine school without her. (:

i kept saying jen's stomach will explode even if she smells sweet stuff

it was so funny

and hamyy kept calling me soon kueh lor

hahahha

went for my last instalment of Hep B with maymay and jen

cos hamyy have to go home and drink 50 cans of redbull(LOL)

it was so fucking pain i tell you

i think its abit swollen already. ):

nonetheless, we had dinner at pizza hut

and i thought maymay was possessed when she got so high drinking only ice lemon tea

she can talk and laugh damn fast!

LOL

make me so high also lor

okay pictures time! (:

2009-01-02T16:55:00.003+08:00

oh god, im sickk....again(!)
i don't know whats wrong with me
ever since i came back from the genting trip, ive been falling sick ever-so-easily
sore throat, fever, running nose never seems to leave me alone
and i seriously miss hamyy that bitch like what the fuck
school's starting in two day's time and i havent done any of the projects
zomg, i have to be a supergirl

okay imma plan my new year resolutions:

#1. LOSE AT LEAST 5KG (this has been on my list for like forever)

#2. STOP BEING SO SELFISH

#3. CUT DOWN ON GOSSIPS, its unhealthy too

#4. EAT MORE FRUITS AND VEGETABLES, LIMIT MY FASTFOOD MEALS TO, SAY, ONCE A MONTH

#5. DON'T BE SUCH A SPOILSPORT AND GET OUT OF THE HOUSE MORE OFTEN

#6. SPEND MORE TIME WITH GRANNY

#7. BUCK UP ON STUDIES

#8. READ MORE BOOKS AND IMPROVE ON MY BLOODY ENGLISH

#9. GET A JOB

#10. STOP BEING PARANOID

#11. BE MORE INDEPENDENT

and last of all, STICK TO THEM!

okay done.

im off. :D

2009-01-01T02:37:00.002+08:00

first things first,
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :DDDD
i hope you guys have an enjoyable 2009!

went out with maymay just now
had dinner with her and off we went to find hamyy and company
but the timing was not right,
and so only both of us ended up at clarke quay for the countdown
the fireworks were great, too good in fact
for quite long too, i think they must have used up next year's as well
there's this bunch of angmohs
they keep shouting HAPPY NEW YEAR! YES WE MADE IT! WOOO! HAPPY 2009!
they even shouted into my ears, i almost jumped
they lifted the atmosphere
i thought it should be like that, lively and crazy
hahha
and they're cute too
who doesn't like angmohs? (:

anyways, went st james on monday
at first it was awkward, with the size of the crowd
but it bacame better when the room eventually filled with smelly people
hahahahh
i thought it was pretty good
too much hardstyle though
the songs were quite old too
didn't even have womanizer
got to know this bunch of malays
they're cool
went henderson waves and mount faber(?) to chill after that
i swear i thought i lost 5kg
crapped and joked
caught the first bus to maymay's house
had the worst breakfast of my life
knocked out on maymay's bed

and i broke two of my beloved bangles. ):

2008-12-24T14:49:00.003+08:00

TEAM TAYLOR!

HEY HOW CAN THEY JUST REPLACE TAYLOR LAUTNER LIKE THAT? LOOK, HE FITS THE ROLE 'JACOB BLACK' PERFECTLY! HE'S GOT THE LOOK, THE PERSONALITY, AND HE'S PACKING ON THE POUNDS RIGHT NOW. HE'S REALLY BUFF NOW, SERIOUSLY.

FIRST, THEY CHANGED THE DIRECTOR. NOW THEY WANT TO CHANGE THE CAST TOO!? ITS AS GOOD AS REPLACING RUPERT GRINT IN HIS SUBSEQUENT ROLE IN THE HARRY POTTER SERIES, NO?

WORST STILL, THEY ARE REPLACING TAYLOR LAUTNER WITH A GUY THAT IS LIKE WHAT, 26 YEARS OLD? IN THE BOOK, JACOB BLACK'S SUPPOSED TO BE AROUND BELLA'S AGE, NOT 9 YEARS HER SENIOR!

OH COME ON! IM NOT WATCHING THE MOVIE IF HE'S GONNA BE REPLACED.

2008-12-22T12:02:00.003+08:00

some overdue pictures

spot my whiskers!

had been lazing around at home this few days
no wait, i think i went out with jen and maymay last friday
caught TWILIGHT
i thought it was okay, the book was better though
looking forward to NEW MOON but that'll be like 2 years later
i hope its worth the wait and anticipation (:

rent a couple of DVDs and started the movie marathon
27 dresses, i now pronounce you Chuck and Larry, be kind rewind, along came polly etc etc
okay im officially a couch potato. Story of my life.

on a not-so-depressing note, i passed all the modules! not so stupid after all! :D

2008-12-18T14:03:00.000+08:00

LOOK AT THE DATE,
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING AT HOME?!?

movies-favourite pastime

2008-12-17T12:19:00.007+08:00

Nick and Norah's infinite playlist--checked (maybe watching it again)
Four Christmases--checked
Angus, thongs and perfect snogging--checked
TWILIGHT--checked
Yes man--checked
Bedtime stories--checked
Marley & me--

so many great movies, so little money.
S.U.C.K.S

2008-12-14T15:05:00.003+08:00

"When you're young, everything feels like the end of the world.

But its not, its just the beginning."

hang on, i just gotta pull through this.

gone wild

2008-12-12T23:00:00.003+08:00

ATTACHMENTS ARE FINALLY OVERRRRRRRRRRR
okay im so goddamn fucking ecstatic can
im gonna enjoy myself to the max tomorrow
so excited
gonna dye hair, pluck eyebrow(omg i actually do have eyebrows!), shop, and hopefully partaye. ohoho
didn't know i could click so well with siti
hope she earn loads of money tomorrow and hang out with us at night
omg i love my friends
every saturday, you know i know we know. :D
hamidah is a naughty ahlian
omg i actually kinda miss jen
come out with us soon alright sayang,
~~i wanna make you drunk~~

and thanks sooooooo much to my np senior for covering up for us today.

we totally appreciate it loads, even if its just 30 minutes. (:

cant sleep tonight, too excited

i just couldn't get enough of them :D

wrecked

2008-12-07T21:15:00.005+08:00

thanks. :D

went out with the girls ytd
bought presents for jenneth the bitch
hope she'll like it. (:

asked yeefei out in the middle of the night
talked and laughed
and im feeling better now. hah
im sick nowww
must have got the flu and cough bug from her
dammit

2008-12-05T18:28:00.003+08:00

omfg
things are just going way outta hand
firstly, people just can't respect the year 1s and idk why
secondly, the CF only came and check our attire and suay enough i got caught sitting down and she saw my piercing
thirdly, i can no longer feel my legs
fourthly, we got separated
fifthly, still 4 more bloody days to go
lastly, results are coming out soon
actually there's a hell lot more

is it just me or does everyone else also thinks that THIS.SUCKS.TRUCKLOADS?
seriously

and why can't i just take my mind off these things and fucking grow up?
people are already moving on and happy, well, at least okay with their life
and im still bloody drowning in these stupid juvenile moodswings
like, c'mon, move on already!
urghhhhh im so frustrated with myself
its like you want to do it but you don't feel like doing it
that sorta feeling is a killer
its dead true
am i a 3 year old kid or what?
why can't i just bloody.move.on?!!
so sickkk
i wanna chop off my hands for clicking on that damn link

imma jump off the building now
bye

i beg myself, don't look back in anger