damn, im falling in love with those subway cookies.
.
i just realised i don't have the urge to blog anymore
im getting sooo lazy recently, plus i no longer know how to put my emotions into words
damn, whatever happened to me?
my life's been pretty boring too
even the cny this year seems dull to me
.
anyways, lets talk serious.
gosh, im like so so so dead
. nr presentation 5/2/09- incomplete sawi presentation 3/2/09 (i think) pharmaco presentation 29/1/09 fon presentation 23/1/09 . aap practical test 2/2/09 cmbio mock test 3/2/09 nsl theory test 11/2/09 less than 3 weeks to the finals . i literally slept through the 3 weeks since school reopens everything seems a blur to me i can't recall anything i guess its time to pull up my socks starting from tomorrow onwards, i shall do my part properly (for projects), start revising for exams (esp. aap) and stop eating c.o.o.l
*. * .*
right, i'll end this post after this pic
jenneth, who enjoys chopping my fringe, updating me on twilight news, and of course, helping me in everything. (:
went around to relatives' house to bai nian this few days was really surprised that most of my cousins have already break their voices wow. time really flies. gotten quite a number of ang pows hmm its all goodey good had a great reunion dinner gosh, time to lose weight...again greetings from big sis in india through the webcam and technologies wowed my granny, she's so cute
too lazy to upload pictures heh heh next time next time. (:
you know what? i don't care anymore. im sucha a wimp all this while and i haven't realised it till now. why do i have to please everyone out there? why do i have to feel so loserish when i didn't do anything? why do i have to be so affected by every single thing people said? it felt so bad sometimes its killing every single part of me. its not fun, no its not.
reality really gave me a tight slap in the face. why do you have to be such a bitch? i can't believe we were actually friends before. please do realise that you are not perfect. no one is. and go on, lead your own miserable life. don't ever pull other innocent people along with you. i know everyone is on your side, but who cares? as long as im happy. just go tell others how jealous you are of us. or you can bloody hell leave us alone. sometimes i wonder how can you talk to us like nothing happened. don't you feel guilty at all? we.are.not.dumb.asses
and you, you don't even know the whole story. you're just another victim. so don't ever judge us. but thank you anyway for whatever you've done for us.
im really pissed this time.
* * *
anyways, i need to read some good books already
to keep me from thinking about food every single second
to get lost again in fictional stories, creative endings and whatever
.
cny is coming, which means im becoming a fat pig soon
with lots of ba kwa and cookies and steamboat
but cny also means got ang pow money!
$_$
.
went hunting for my cny clothes with hamidoo just now
bought a pair of leggings, shoes and a tube dress and spent almost a hundred bucks
shiok!
but i think its not enough yet
maybe one more pair of shorts and a top?
hmm
.
pictures are with hamidoo
i'll add in once i got them.
peace out people, sweet dreams. (:
.
* * *
why do i feel nervous just looking at your picture?
yeah im trying, very hard i guess memories are vague but i don't care i don't want any of it, not anymore kinda contradicting myself i, too, don't know what i want can't make up my mind but it doesn't really matter anymore cos i can't turn back time i can't blame anyone too have to learn to live with it guess its only normal to reminisce time to time i did a stupid mistake a year ago don't wish to repeat it a valuable lesson learnt, just that it comes with horrible consequences i have to pick myself up eventually no use sitting by the river, drinking and crying my eyes out for something that, i know, is irreversible
add a fullstop to this and everything will be just fine.
oh god, im sickk....again(!) i don't know whats wrong with me ever since i came back from the genting trip, ive been falling sick ever-so-easily sore throat, fever, running nose never seems to leave me alone and i seriously miss hamyy that bitch like what the fuck school's starting in two day's time and i havent done any of the projects zomg, i have to be a supergirl
okay imma plan my new year resolutions:
#1. LOSE AT LEAST 5KG (this has been on my list for like forever)
.
#2. STOP BEING SO SELFISH
.
#3. CUT DOWN ON GOSSIPS, its unhealthy too
.
#4. EAT MORE FRUITS AND VEGETABLES, LIMIT MY FASTFOOD MEALS TO, SAY, ONCE A MONTH
.
#5. DON'T BE SUCH A SPOILSPORT AND GET OUT OF THE HOUSE MORE OFTEN
.
#6. SPEND MORE TIME WITH GRANNY
.
#7. BUCK UP ON STUDIES
.
#8. READ MORE BOOKS AND IMPROVE ON MY BLOODY ENGLISH
first things first, HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :DDDD i hope you guys have an enjoyable 2009!
went out with maymay just now had dinner with her and off we went to find hamyy and company but the timing was not right, and so only both of us ended up at clarke quay for the countdown the fireworks were great, too good in fact for quite long too, i think they must have used up next year's as well there's this bunch of angmohs they keep shouting HAPPY NEW YEAR! YES WE MADE IT! WOOO! HAPPY 2009! they even shouted into my ears, i almost jumped they lifted the atmosphere i thought it should be like that, lively and crazy hahha and they're cute too who doesn't like angmohs? (:
anyways, went st james on monday at first it was awkward, with the size of the crowd but it bacame better when the room eventually filled with smelly people hahahahh i thought it was pretty good too much hardstyle though the songs were quite old too didn't even have womanizer got to know this bunch of malays they're cool went henderson waves and mount faber(?) to chill after that i swear i thought i lost 5kg crapped and joked caught the first bus to maymay's house had the worst breakfast of my life knocked out on maymay's bed
Find a truly original idea. It is the only way I will ever distinguish myself.
It is the only way I will ever matter.
so so dead
Saturday, January 31, 2009 / 10:10 PM ♥
damn, im falling in love with those subway cookies.
.
i just realised i don't have the urge to blog anymore
im getting sooo lazy recently, plus i no longer know how to put my emotions into words
damn, whatever happened to me?
my life's been pretty boring too
even the cny this year seems dull to me
.
anyways, lets talk serious.
gosh, im like so so so dead
. nr presentation 5/2/09- incomplete sawi presentation 3/2/09 (i think) pharmaco presentation 29/1/09 fon presentation 23/1/09 . aap practical test 2/2/09 cmbio mock test 3/2/09 nsl theory test 11/2/09 less than 3 weeks to the finals . i literally slept through the 3 weeks since school reopens everything seems a blur to me i can't recall anything i guess its time to pull up my socks starting from tomorrow onwards, i shall do my part properly (for projects), start revising for exams (esp. aap) and stop eating c.o.o.l
*. * .*
right, i'll end this post after this pic
jenneth, who enjoys chopping my fringe, updating me on twilight news, and of course, helping me in everything. (:
went around to relatives' house to bai nian this few days was really surprised that most of my cousins have already break their voices wow. time really flies. gotten quite a number of ang pows hmm its all goodey good had a great reunion dinner gosh, time to lose weight...again greetings from big sis in india through the webcam and technologies wowed my granny, she's so cute
too lazy to upload pictures heh heh next time next time. (:
things change
Saturday, January 17, 2009 / 10:26 PM ♥
you know what? i don't care anymore. im sucha a wimp all this while and i haven't realised it till now. why do i have to please everyone out there? why do i have to feel so loserish when i didn't do anything? why do i have to be so affected by every single thing people said? it felt so bad sometimes its killing every single part of me. its not fun, no its not.
reality really gave me a tight slap in the face. why do you have to be such a bitch? i can't believe we were actually friends before. please do realise that you are not perfect. no one is. and go on, lead your own miserable life. don't ever pull other innocent people along with you. i know everyone is on your side, but who cares? as long as im happy. just go tell others how jealous you are of us. or you can bloody hell leave us alone. sometimes i wonder how can you talk to us like nothing happened. don't you feel guilty at all? we.are.not.dumb.asses
and you, you don't even know the whole story. you're just another victim. so don't ever judge us. but thank you anyway for whatever you've done for us.
im really pissed this time.
* * *
anyways, i need to read some good books already
to keep me from thinking about food every single second
to get lost again in fictional stories, creative endings and whatever
.
cny is coming, which means im becoming a fat pig soon
with lots of ba kwa and cookies and steamboat
but cny also means got ang pow money!
$_$
.
went hunting for my cny clothes with hamidoo just now
bought a pair of leggings, shoes and a tube dress and spent almost a hundred bucks
shiok!
but i think its not enough yet
maybe one more pair of shorts and a top?
hmm
.
pictures are with hamidoo
i'll add in once i got them.
peace out people, sweet dreams. (:
.
* * *
why do i feel nervous just looking at your picture?
yeah im trying, very hard i guess memories are vague but i don't care i don't want any of it, not anymore kinda contradicting myself i, too, don't know what i want can't make up my mind but it doesn't really matter anymore cos i can't turn back time i can't blame anyone too have to learn to live with it guess its only normal to reminisce time to time i did a stupid mistake a year ago don't wish to repeat it a valuable lesson learnt, just that it comes with horrible consequences i have to pick myself up eventually no use sitting by the river, drinking and crying my eyes out for something that, i know, is irreversible
add a fullstop to this and everything will be just fine.
oh god, im sickk....again(!) i don't know whats wrong with me ever since i came back from the genting trip, ive been falling sick ever-so-easily sore throat, fever, running nose never seems to leave me alone and i seriously miss hamyy that bitch like what the fuck school's starting in two day's time and i havent done any of the projects zomg, i have to be a supergirl
okay imma plan my new year resolutions:
#1. LOSE AT LEAST 5KG (this has been on my list for like forever)
.
#2. STOP BEING SO SELFISH
.
#3. CUT DOWN ON GOSSIPS, its unhealthy too
.
#4. EAT MORE FRUITS AND VEGETABLES, LIMIT MY FASTFOOD MEALS TO, SAY, ONCE A MONTH
.
#5. DON'T BE SUCH A SPOILSPORT AND GET OUT OF THE HOUSE MORE OFTEN
.
#6. SPEND MORE TIME WITH GRANNY
.
#7. BUCK UP ON STUDIES
.
#8. READ MORE BOOKS AND IMPROVE ON MY BLOODY ENGLISH
first things first, HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :DDDD i hope you guys have an enjoyable 2009!
went out with maymay just now had dinner with her and off we went to find hamyy and company but the timing was not right, and so only both of us ended up at clarke quay for the countdown the fireworks were great, too good in fact for quite long too, i think they must have used up next year's as well there's this bunch of angmohs they keep shouting HAPPY NEW YEAR! YES WE MADE IT! WOOO! HAPPY 2009! they even shouted into my ears, i almost jumped they lifted the atmosphere i thought it should be like that, lively and crazy hahha and they're cute too who doesn't like angmohs? (:
anyways, went st james on monday at first it was awkward, with the size of the crowd but it bacame better when the room eventually filled with smelly people hahahahh i thought it was pretty good too much hardstyle though the songs were quite old too didn't even have womanizer got to know this bunch of malays they're cool went henderson waves and mount faber(?) to chill after that i swear i thought i lost 5kg crapped and joked caught the first bus to maymay's house had the worst breakfast of my life knocked out on maymay's bed
