nobody can be more suay than us. nobody. im having my fucking end of year exam on the second day of the fucking chinese new year. cny for god's sake! i love cny! i swear ive never missed any cny in my entire life. and guess what? the first paper is none other than the toughest of them all. pharmacology. fucking drugs.
and stupid year three is coming. stupid fyp. you know. when you're doing projects, its not only the work that is demanding. its the people too. if only its just us doing it. big sigh. plus its not only fyp, there's still the never-ending attachments too. i dont even dare to think about it manz
and there's one more thing on my mind. should i sign the bond with sgh? you know i could do good with the money. my family discourage me but friends encourage me. dilema much? advantages: monthly income i so need, erm actually thats about all. disadvantages: all the usual stuffs. bad stuffs. omg idk. if i sign the bond and work through the 2 years and hopefully escape unscathed, then im more or less free. i can go abroad to work(their pay is way higher in u.s.a you couldn't even imagine) or further my studies. or i can progress to research nursing i so loathe if not for the good pay, or other jobs related to the medical field. if i dont sign the bond, and if i dont work as a nurse, i can be..er nothing. unless i go for those disgusting jobs that only needs an o lvl cert. which means im wasting my life and $ away right now. every minute of it.
im having a major headache now.
i need words of wisdom desperately from somebody who's been through this
i dreamt that sylvia ratonel is standing right infront of me, something about imh in nuh etc
does that mean something?
holy shit
if there's one thing i could change: stop being paranoid
ok no pictures because im lazy to transfer them from my cam plus the comp is ancient, wouldn't want it to die on me cos i don't have money to buy a new one and its getting late i want to sleep. ok im lazy
they're kinda comforting, or just plain sad i don't know
i get the warm and fuzzy feeling inside me,
but its gone as soon as i realized its fake
is it good or bad that i can't seem to care that much anymore?
***
hello school, i hate you
somebody once asked me why i love to read
because i figured getting lost in someone else's stories keeps me from thinking about my own problems,
thats why
nobody can be more suay than us. nobody. im having my fucking end of year exam on the second day of the fucking chinese new year. cny for god's sake! i love cny! i swear ive never missed any cny in my entire life. and guess what? the first paper is none other than the toughest of them all. pharmacology. fucking drugs.
and stupid year three is coming. stupid fyp. you know. when you're doing projects, its not only the work that is demanding. its the people too. if only its just us doing it. big sigh. plus its not only fyp, there's still the never-ending attachments too. i dont even dare to think about it manz
and there's one more thing on my mind. should i sign the bond with sgh? you know i could do good with the money. my family discourage me but friends encourage me. dilema much? advantages: monthly income i so need, erm actually thats about all. disadvantages: all the usual stuffs. bad stuffs. omg idk. if i sign the bond and work through the 2 years and hopefully escape unscathed, then im more or less free. i can go abroad to work(their pay is way higher in u.s.a you couldn't even imagine) or further my studies. or i can progress to research nursing i so loathe if not for the good pay, or other jobs related to the medical field. if i dont sign the bond, and if i dont work as a nurse, i can be..er nothing. unless i go for those disgusting jobs that only needs an o lvl cert. which means im wasting my life and $ away right now. every minute of it.
im having a major headache now.
i need words of wisdom desperately from somebody who's been through this
i dreamt that sylvia ratonel is standing right infront of me, something about imh in nuh etc
does that mean something?
holy shit
if there's one thing i could change: stop being paranoid
ok no pictures because im lazy to transfer them from my cam plus the comp is ancient, wouldn't want it to die on me cos i don't have money to buy a new one and its getting late i want to sleep. ok im lazy
they're kinda comforting, or just plain sad i don't know
i get the warm and fuzzy feeling inside me,
but its gone as soon as i realized its fake
is it good or bad that i can't seem to care that much anymore?
***
hello school, i hate you
somebody once asked me why i love to read
because i figured getting lost in someone else's stories keeps me from thinking about my own problems,
thats why